light the candle for me

ya Allah...this feeling is so beautiful...

yesterday waas my birthday

yet

i think i feel happy and blessed and touched till the morning of the day after

for one thing

i didn't received many wishes

only from the people that's really closed to me

and their reminds of my day were enough for me

from my mother

she told me that she had reminded that this 25/10 was my birthday

and she had reminded herself to give me text on the day
many days before yesterday

like the many years before

and i was so touched 

from my father

he wishes me "Happy Birthday"

haha

he is a tough guy

and funny and soft

and i think i was so shocked to hear those words

this is the first time....

for i couldn't recall him telling me any birthday wishes before

and he asked me if i have had any cakes

hahaha

from my little brother

he was working and sleeping

when i called him

then sleepily he told me happy birthday

and i expect  him to forget about it hours later

when he's at home

but then,

he later, posted on my wall

the birthday wish

my classmate and those very closed friends of mine

sang me happy birthday song in lecture hall

i have been an anti-sosial recluse
not so closed to people

and i knew the feeling of being ignored 

and having only few(1 or 2) closed friends

but

here, 

i got 9 closed friends

soooooooooo mannnnyyyyyy

and Alyaa was the first to wish me happy birthday

and so funny when they debated among themselves of my birthday dates...

haha

it was okay

unforgivable

and the last ones.....

were my 2 really closed friends at school

one is in Cardiff now

u know, i got 2 simcard

one for celcom, another for maxis

when she called me

i was using my celcom no to call my father

and yeah, soon after i changed the simcard

i received a message

and it stated that a +6044.........

had tried to call me 4 times...

means 4 miscalls la kan...

and then i guessed she had class after it

(it was 9 pm,Malaysia, for Cardiff,3 pm)

that only later, she posted a birthday wish

on my fb wall

the another closed friend is the one, currently at Uitm Puncak Alam

i was so happy to receive her wish

and we had been re-in-touch after years, recently

in the old school, we both were the most unpopular kids there

sitting in class with all the big2 prefects, debaters, teachers pets

made us so tiny

but i thought we supported each other that time

and that's enough for me,

and they both are currently furthering pharmacy

hm... this is the closing day for my 1st 20th day of my life

but all i can conclude is that 

this birthday proved to me that

i can be happy and thankful with what i have

i don't need plenty wishes

and then i forget who tell me the wishes

but i only need those wishes from people i concern the most

 and i know they concern about me the same way around

and yet

the classes, yesterday was until 5 pm

and i had my presentation with a friend about a research report

(that's rare....i used to avoid social attention, u know.. and i DID presentation yesterday....oh..yeah..)

for my wishes...

1. i wish i meet him(my future hubby), next year,on my birthday...

which i hadn't meet yesterday...it's ok

2. i wish to have happy graduation day this 2015, insyaAllah

3. i wish i loss some kg

4. i wish for my parents and grandmas to have longevity that they can be

both at my graduation and wedding days

5. i wish to eat cake on my birthday and out enjoy myself, next years, on my birthdays

(it's ok, my friend gave me chocolate with a strawberry shape, yesterday...a good replacement....homemade, yummy one)

that's all i think

and last,

this birthday gave me only one word

SPECIAL