i will be 20 in 5 days....

before 

i made a small wish in my heart....

"i wish to meet my future husband on my birthday 

when i turn 20,insyaAllah..."

but now i know deep in my heart

the wish somehow is a mistake

somehow i know that i shouldn't have made the wish

it's never become a truth!

nothing will happen on my birthday!

NOTHING!!

why??

because

the people i was, is, used to waiting for

will always never know my presence

and they always look passed me

how i know this??

because i always hope for wrong people

and 

i learn A LOT from them

and now...

i know.....

on my birthday

i will repeat the same routines that i do everyday

wear the same baju kurung

same shoes

same class

same nasi

same lauk

same nescafe(.....erk! i can't laeve my coffee)

same umbrella

same routes

same same same same

!!!!!!!!!

it's not that i am not 

thankful with everything i have for now ( i don't want to be like Shrek in Shrek forever after)

but i wish

i have something different 

since i'm turning 20

however....

where's the big deal??

20 is just a number

same as 19, 18, 17,16

all is the same.

last..

i hope i meet my train friend again

it's been a long time since we last and first meet together

insyaAllah....