1st pro exam in one week time

salam... really dun know my feeling rite now, half hoping that i am at home and am eating double dutch ice cream,another half is screaming to finish the reading and sleep. not that i sleep late at nite, tp thula kan... mood exam, memg mood swing la kan...

hm... this is our first pro exam. i really want to pass this exam without having to take the viva voce... please, if i am to take the viva test, i mean two things, i am definitely borderline and i have to pass it to continue next yer. if i fail the viva, my life..... I WANT TO GO TO UMRAH ......!!!!!

please.... i have to pass this exam without viva, i don't want distinction i just need marks of 55 and above.. my friends are obviously stuggling for the viva distinction, mind, but i just want to pass without it...

why??? because if it happens that i fail the oral biology pro exam or basic med sc semester exam, i have to sit for supplementary exam.. which fall on the day i am supposed to board the plane to Bahrain and to Madinah... to Mecca!

i really want to go there, because, this trip is my first ever trip alone(means no family member or relatives with me...hm..friends only) to outside world, other than Kelantan and Penang and Pahang and Selangor and Perak..and Terengganu! i used to aim high to pursue the study overseas but i don't get enough A for SPM..only one short! and my dream burns...i don't regret it,  mind, because what i found after that is way too beautiful than what my dream is...

so now, i want to reach my precious  goal of life, the one i will fight for! i want to be like Faisal Tehrani, a traveler and a writer...haha a funny thing to dream on kan?? what a dentist could do with a travelling!

surprisingly...A LOT! i want to aim for orthodontist. i will fix many teeth in many places and i will keep the money and when i think it's enough, i will set out alone to the open world, discovering my origins, our origins... discovering things have been my curiosity, see.. now i want to seek the things left behind by our great great great...... grandparents for us...

wait and see....what happen! don't worry i will keep this blog for my life, insyaAllah, if He allows me to.. for this is a part of my story..

thank you Allah for this pure feeling

it is hard to love someone, when he do not know that we love them.
it is hard to keep this love quiet when everyday we are overflew with our love to them
it is hard to keep ourselves easy when we know they are elsewhere fighting for a living
it is hard to keep silent when our whole world seem full of them

my love to him... i shall keep silent for now
i shall pray for him
i shall watch him from distant
i shall quietly wish for him
i shall quietly love him

it is painful
but it worth it
since i have Allah All Mighty along side me, always watching me and giving me what i want
thank you Allah for this pure feeling You give to me
although it is just me that feel it this way when he's not
but i wish he will someday feel the same way as i feel for him

when i finally realise it
if i love that someone this bad when i just know him few years back
is it comparable with Allah that watch me, give me free gifts, guide me
take care of me,
everytime, every minutes, every seconds
stay with me,
watching me
Allah may care for me so much that He put me into Islam
introduce me to good family, good friends and good country
even when i love that someone, i think i can do anything to keep update of his
but Allah always be there for me


i think i love that someone but....now that i realise it,
he does'nt even know that i love him,
but Allah, He care for me, always give me things, protects me...what is that???
Allah LOVE me!!!
since.....before i love that someone for sure!


now i want to seek forgiveness to Allah, 
because i never realise this
until now
when i have live in this world for 20 years!
and Allah has loved me before that!
ya Allah.... i am a sinner
it's late...too late for me to realise this...


now i think i love Allah than that someone....


and forgive me ya Allah... for being too late to realise this...

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exam is 2 weeks more...uhuh..

ok...i'm feeling a little bit chilly rite now. i will sit for the first pro exam in TWO WEEKS time!!!!
ok...memang la bese je...tp kalu ak x brape pass exam ni....ak x leh g umrah kot....everything dah siap...tggu visa n nk g je...tiket,planning...sumedah, insyaAllah siap....takut.......
and ak kena cover 4 modulss.... n extra 4 for compulsary lab repot reading, jurnal, histology slides, and....our own report presentationsssssssss.......now!that's what i called FUN!! this few days, ak akan jd abnormally quiet and lite eater...insyaAllah....now what i look forwards in the time beings is another univrsty exam tomorrow for PBSM and next monday for CITU(ethnic relations) final exams....hahah.....i feel lucky to sit here and enjoy the examz...the examz really favours me these few days.....hahah.... and i favour them too...because... exams means a halt... and mind relaxing time...in another word, HOLIDAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! and QLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah!

love between human is a destiny

love is defined as a parallel, perpendicular, intermingle feeling people have towards each other or other things. what i want to share here is the subject of love among other people. yet again,  i am a growing up girl that know of nothings about love between man and woman, other than family and friends.
as for me......

it's clear kan?? Allah is The Knower of All, The Magnificient...and He is The Creator...the All Merciful...The Compassionate...He knows what u don't know...and He knows beforehand of what will happen in the future, the past and the current things...

for me, i have been fond of someone, for over 4 years now. but i know, i likes him because he is an ideal muslim for me. but i know, if he is that great, his Creator is the All Greatest.ALLAHUAKBAR! then, now, is it comparable, between a man that only briefly live in this world, with his Creator that All Knower and The Creator of All...no...imcomparable...how much we love that somebody, if it happens that he has lost his faith of life...the less, we could do is seeking His Forgiveness for the man, and may Allah, forgive him...Allah will forgive anybody that seek His forgiveness, for He is The All Forgiven, unless u do syirik. the man with no faith of life, is a meaningless soul. before the times end soon, ask Him for a new heart..so that u could have His Blessing and Forgiveness, before the times end... 

for me, woman and man, is like a a button and a needle. the needle and the button need to have a tough thread that can connect the two very strongly attached to each other, which is iman. the iman will drive somone towards Allah SWT..Allah Almighty...He know when we do not know...

and lastly...as qoute in Al-Quran, "a good man is for a good woman, and a good woman is for the good man. and the bad man is for the bad woman, and a bad woman is for the bad man."

whatever, our future husband or wife is, Allah has appointed him or her for us. there must be something about it. maybe the man or woman who we think is perfect for us,is not afterall. again, Allah knows what we do not know.