thank you Allah for this pure feeling

it is hard to love someone, when he do not know that we love them.
it is hard to keep this love quiet when everyday we are overflew with our love to them
it is hard to keep ourselves easy when we know they are elsewhere fighting for a living
it is hard to keep silent when our whole world seem full of them

my love to him... i shall keep silent for now
i shall pray for him
i shall watch him from distant
i shall quietly wish for him
i shall quietly love him

it is painful
but it worth it
since i have Allah All Mighty along side me, always watching me and giving me what i want
thank you Allah for this pure feeling You give to me
although it is just me that feel it this way when he's not
but i wish he will someday feel the same way as i feel for him

when i finally realise it
if i love that someone this bad when i just know him few years back
is it comparable with Allah that watch me, give me free gifts, guide me
take care of me,
everytime, every minutes, every seconds
stay with me,
watching me
Allah may care for me so much that He put me into Islam
introduce me to good family, good friends and good country
even when i love that someone, i think i can do anything to keep update of his
but Allah always be there for me


i think i love that someone but....now that i realise it,
he does'nt even know that i love him,
but Allah, He care for me, always give me things, protects me...what is that???
Allah LOVE me!!!
since.....before i love that someone for sure!


now i want to seek forgiveness to Allah, 
because i never realise this
until now
when i have live in this world for 20 years!
and Allah has loved me before that!
ya Allah.... i am a sinner
it's late...too late for me to realise this...


now i think i love Allah than that someone....


and forgive me ya Allah... for being too late to realise this...