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Tuesday, January 3, 2012

the world is moving fast

there have been lots of changes
these few days
yeah....new year is here...
the school is gonna opened 
the sem is gonna end soon
and yeah...the final exam...
will be around these few days...

but what i really wanna take the point out here
is not about any of those really
but it is more to the paradigms changes i think Malaysians are moving to
specifically MUSLIMS MALAYS(MM)

i am 20 years old
ans i think is old enough to give out opinion

and in my opinions
many of my friends
which during their teens days are all the bad bad people
turn out good these few years around
i am quite observant and there are few people i have 
observed, quite closely and secretly
showed me some positive changes

they become more humble than before and their attitudes
MasyaAllah ^^
i really fond of them now
and i really pray for them to be istiqomah in what they are doing

some that i observed
already wear purdah...
which i couldn't find the courage in wearing it
i really don't know why
but truthfully
last year, my heart did urges me to do so
but somehow... 
i still not wear the purdah up to this day

another that i observed
already covered their hair and aurat nicely
and completely
Alhamdulillah....
i will always pray for them
they fought bravely in doing so
i am so proud of you
REALLY
hidayah(THE LIGHT) is from Allah SWT
for you to follow His Guidance
and really, you will find no imperfections in His Guidance

some really have started considered Islam in their lives
yeah....life without religion is like the world without the air
really
human are born to embrace religion, specifically ISLAM
people may say lots of things like
when you have religion you can't enjoy the lives
you can't date girls
you can't do crazy crazy things
which are WRONG!!!
in fact having Islam in my live really teach me to be a better person
which enjoy live in more enjoyable beneficial ways
and i really feel fortunate and happy
because when i am sad or happy or under pressure or scare etc etc etc...
i always have Allah with me
insyaAllah ^^
and i know that what i am doing is observed closely by HIM
and i was protected by HIM
i feel immediately in love and the love is so pure i can't say how

indeed i am no ulamak or student that study Syariah, Al-Quran and Hadis at school
but as time moving 
the need of religion grows in me 
and that time i was school-transfered to a boarding school
there, i learnt as much as i want about Islam
and now insyaAllah i am proud to say that
 i am proud to be a MUSLIMAH

and i really want to see people around me embracing Islam
because once you do that you may notice that you get all the things you need
calmness, soothe, energy, all...
and you may see that there are good changes Islam brings to you
you may have better view of life
and your life quality is actually improved!
Islam teaches you to be a good person which do good deeds

hm... i wanna say no more
but i will pray that
we will all be in Allah's Love and Barakah
insyaAllah
.....AMIN.....







Monday, December 26, 2011

my last birthday present

that day
i received a book from my dearest friend
she is my friend since i was 10
and now i am 20
well yeah...
it has been 10 years we have seen each other

thank you, Da for the perfect present!

she gave me this
Motivasi Menjadi Wanita Paling Bahagia
by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni

the book is AWESOME!!!
i really want to suggest it to any of the girls, woman, ladies
out there to reach out and read the book!
really!!
it will not be a waste, u know!

the book really teach me to think differently of the way i see the world
and the way i feel.
every words is based on concrete proofs from Al-Quran or quoted from al-Hadith itself

a blog about the book

next time i will update more about the book
i still halfway through the book and can't wait to catch the final page!





that day
i received a book from my dearest friend
she is my friend since i was 10
and now i am 20
well yeah...
it has been 10 years we have seen each other

thank you, Da for the perfect present!

she gave me this
Motivasi Menjadi Wanita Paling Bahagia
by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni

the book is AWESOME!!!
i really want to suggest it to any of the girls, woman, ladies
out there to each out and read the book!
really!!
it will not be a waste, u know!

the book really teach me to think differently of the way i see the world
and the way i feel.
every words is based on concrete proofs from Al-Quran or quoted from al-Hadith itself

a blog about the book

next time i will update more about the book
i still halfway through the book and can't wait to catch the final page!





Wednesday, December 21, 2011

self pondering

i am pondering myself
curing myself
light-cured, self-cured
about several things during these few CRAZY-OUS weeks
seriously....
too much hectic, 
the tense is always in the air during the day
but the air will quickly dissolves when the sun sets..
unique, is it?

ok! let's get serious...
i am currently doing my first complete denture on the phantom head
my very first patient..tqvm!
i really don't wanna complain much about this
well, this is the bread and butter of mine in the future, right?
insyaAllah....
but what i really wanna talk about is about the story behind the "haruk pikuk kehidupan itu"

when i do the working and all the hand-skills polishing things
few things that i notice are
the true colours of people are flowing out from every corners, no matters how hard they try to cover those things 
i really do not say that the colours are not that nice
some are really nice and beautiful
but some....hm....not so nice that i tried to ignore and stay away from

when we do the works
actually we are simultaneouly practising our everyday-life-skills that we have
as for me, i am not someone that will hold firm my stand to others
enough if only me and HIM and few people know about it
i prefer not to win, if that will make others happy...

but these everyday-life-skills will eventually become our habits
and if the habits is to always take over others
to always look down on people
to always be the dictators one...
as time goes on...
i think we will self-develop into the Julius Caesar,Kim Jong Il,Mussolini...
or perhaps Hitler???

a reminder to me future self and people around me
we are not perfect...
the last perfect on Earth is our Last Prophet, NABI MUHAMMAD SAW
and we are not 100% pure
we are in fact, full of sins and dirt each days..
hence, 
let's give this a thought
look around us, we are surrounding by THINGS
not only human, 
there's also insects
birds
pencils
water
trees
clothes
air
bla bla bla...
hence, we are not alone
we have to adapt well with these things, these elements
we have to be in homeostatics environment with them!
imagine what will happen if water hate us..?
Water will stay reaaallll away from us
we will be reaaalllly dehydrated
and mind, human can only survive 3 days without water..
hence eventually, with only 3 days... we die....

people are unique in their own ways
each one is wayyy different from the others
hence, let's just be friends with everyone
stop look down on others
we are neither superior nor inferior to them
if they are the types of loves-to-win-in-everything
let them win, so that you can keep your relationship ok
and you are doing good job, you are keeping their heart healthy
athough yours a bit scratchy...it's ok... time heals everything
insyaAllah

stop be loudly comparative
competition is ok
but keep that in yourself only, please
mentioning about that will either psycho other people
or maybe you, yourself become a psycho
due to the answers you receive is a mere nodding

that's why 
to estimate your working quality or the progressions
simply do a little, silent observations on others
without them knowing
this is safer, and will keep your heart healthier
insyaAllah

HENCE!!!
let's give these few things a thought, ATHIRAH AZIZ!!!!
it is not a waste to use your brain sometimes...haha

hm!
time to sleep !
Assalamualaikum!






Monday, November 28, 2011

Syeikh Ahmad Izzah Al-Andalusi and Adolf Ruberto

Suatu petang, di Penjara tempat tahanan orang-orang di situ terasa hening mencengkam. Jeneral Adolf Roberto, penguasa penjara yang terkenal bengis, sedang memeriksa setiap kamar tahanan.

Apabila beliau melalui setiap sel, kesemua banduan penjara terus membongkokkan badan mereka serendah-rendahnya ketika penguasa penjara itu melintasi di hadapan mereka. Kerana kalau tidak, sepatu boot keras milik tuan Roberto itu akan mendarat di wajah mereka. Ketika melalui satu sel telinga Roberto terdengar suara seseorang sedang mengalunkan ayat-ayat yang amat ia benci apabila mendengarnya “Hai orang tua bodoh… hentikan bacaanmu itu yang sungguh menjengkelkan.. Hentikan… !” Teriak Roberto sekeras-kerasnya sambil membelalakkan mata. Namun apa yang terjadi? Lelaki dikamar tahanan tadi tetap saja bersenandung dengan khusyuknya.

Roberto bertambah berang. Pemimpin penjara itu menghampiri kamar tahanan yang luasnya tak lebih sekadar cukup untuk seorang. Dengan marah ia menyemburkan ludahnya ke wajah tua sang tahanan yang kelihatan sangat kurus kering dan kulit yang berkedut sehingga menampakkan rangka tulang dibadannya. Tak puas sampai di situ, ia lalu menyucuh wajah dan seluruh badan orang tua itu dengan rokoknya yang menyala. Sungguh ajaib… Tak terdengar secuit pun keluh kesakitan. Bibir yang pucat kering milik sang tahanan terus melaungkan kata Ya Rabbi, wa ana abduka… Tahanan lain yang menyaksikan kebiadaban itu serentak bertakbir sambil berkata, “Bersabarlah wahai ustaz… InsyaAllah tempatmu di Syurga.”

Melihat kegigihan orang tua yang dipanggil ustaz oleh sesama tahanan, penguasa penjara itu bertambah memuncak marahnya. Ia memerintahkan pegawai penjara untuk membuka sel, dan ditariknya tubuh orang tua itu keras-kerasnya sehingga terjerembab di lantai. “Hai orang tua busuk! Bukankah engkau tahu, aku tidak suka bahasa hinamu itu?! Aku tidak suka apa-apa yang berhubung dengan agamamu! Ketahuilah orang tua dungu, bumi Sepanyol ini kini telah berada dalam kekuasaan bapa kami, Tuhan *** Anda telah membuat aku benci dan geram dengan suara-suara yang seharusnya tidak didengari lagi di sini. Sebagai balasannya engkau akan kubunuh. Kecuali, kalau engkau mahu minta maaf dan masuk agama kami.” Mendengar “khutbah” itu orang tua itu mendongakkan kepala, menatap Roberto dengan tatapan yang tajam dan dingin. Ia lalu berucap,

“Sungguh… aku sangat merindukan kematian, agar aku segera dapat menjumpai kekasihku yang amat kucintai, iaitu Allah. Bila kini aku berada di puncak kebahagiaan karena akan segera menemuiNya, patutkah aku berlutut kepadamu, hai manusia yang terkutuk? Jika aku turuti kemahuanmu, tentu aku termasuk manusia yang amat bodoh.”


Sejurus sahaja kata-kata itu terhenti, sepatu milik Roberto terus mendarat di wajah lelaki tua itu. Tendangan sepatu yang kuat kemuka lelaki tua itu menyebabkan beliau terhuyung hayang. Kemudian jatuh terkapar di lantai penjara dengan wajah berlumuran darah. Ketika itulah dari saku baju penjaranya yang telah lusuh, meluncur sebuah buku kecil. Adolf Roberto terus memungutnya. Namun tangan sang Ustaz telah terlebih dahulu mengambil dan menggenggamnya erat-erat. “Berikan buku itu, hai lelaki tua yang bodoh !” bentak Roberto. “Haram bagi tanganmu yang kafir dan berlumuran dosa untuk menyentuh barang suci ini!”ucap sang ustaz dengan tatapan menghina pada Roberto. Tak ada jalan lain, akhirnya Roberto mengambil jalan paksa untuk mendapatkan buku itu. Sepatu boot seberat dua kilogram itu terus menginjak jari-jari tangan sang ustaz yang telah lemah. Suara gemeretak tulang yang patah terdengar menggetarkan hati.

Namun tidak demikian bagi Roberto. Laki-laki bengis itu malah merasa bangga mendengar gemeretak tulang yang terputus. Bahkan penguasa penjara itu merasa lebih puas lagi ketika melihat titisan darah mengalir dari jari-jari musuhnya yang telah hancur. Setelah tangan tua itu tidak lagi berdaya diangkat, Roberto memungut buku kecil yang membuatnya baran. Perlahan Roberto membuka sampul buku yang telah lusuh. Beliau seakan terpaku melihat buku dan termenung seketika seperti memikirkan sesuatu. “Ah… seperti aku pernah mengenal buku ini. Tetapi bila? Ya, aku pernah mengenal buku ini.”

Suara hati Roberto bertanya-tanya. Perlahan Roberto membuka lembaran pertama itu. Pemuda berumur tiga puluh tahun itu bertambah terkejut tatkala melihat tulisan-tulisan “aneh” dalam buku itu. Rasanya ia pernah mengenal tulisan seperti itu dahulu. Namun, sekarang tak pernah dilihatnya di bumi Sepanyol. Akhirnya Roberto duduk di samping sang ustaz yang sedang melepaskan nafas-nafas terakhirnya. Wajah bengis pemuda kejam itu kini diliputi tanda tanya yang dalam. Mata Roberto rapat terpejam. Ia berusaha keras mengingat peristiwa yang dialaminya sewaktu masih kanak-kanak.

Perlahan, sketsa masa lalu itu tergambar kembali dalam ingatan Roberto. Pemuda itu teringat ketika suatu petang di masa kanak-kanaknya terjadi kekecohan besar di negeri tempat kelahirannya ini. Petang itu ia melihat peristiwa yang mengerikan di tempat para tawanan menjalani hukuman (tempat penyiksaan kaum muslimin di Andalusia). Di tempat itu tengah berlangsung pesta darah dan nyawa. Beribu-ribu jiwa tak berdosa gugur di bumi Andalusia. Di hujung kiri kawasan penyiksaan tersebut, beberapa puluh wanita berhijab (jilbab) digantung pada tiang-tiang besi yang terpancang tinggi. Tubuh mereka yang mati tergantung terbuai-buai ditiup angin petang yang kencang, membuat pakaian muslimah yang dikenakan berkibar-kibar di udara.

Sementara, di kawasan tengah, ratusan pemuda Islam dibakar hidup-hidup pada tiang-tiang, hanya karena tidak mahu memasuki agama yang dibawa oleh para penceroboh. Seorang kanak- kanak laki-laki comel dan tampan, berumur sekitar tujuh tahun, malam itu masih berdiri tegak di kawasan hukuman telah senyap. Korban-korban kebiadaban itu telah syahid semua. Kanak kanak comel itu melimpahkan airmatanya menatap sang ibu yang terkulai lemah di tiang gantungan. Perlahan-lahan kanak - kanak itu mendekati tubuh sang ummi yang tak sudah bernyawa, sambil menarik-narik pakaian yang dipakai oleh sang ummi. Sang anak itu berkata dengan suara parau, “Ummi, ummi, mari kita pulang. Hari telah malam. Bukankah ummi telah berjanji malam ini akan mengajariku lagi tentang alif, ba, ta, tsa… .? Ummi, cepat pulang ke rumah ummi… “

Budak kecil itu akhirnya menangis semakin kuat, ketika sang ummi tidak jua menyahut ucapannya. Ia semakin bingung dan takut, tak tahu apa yang harus dibuat . Untuk pulang ke rumah pun ia tak tahu arah. Akhirnya budak itu berteriak memanggil ayahnya, “Abi… Abi… Abi… ” Namun ia segera terhenti berteriak memanggil sang bapa ketika teringat petang kelmarin bapanya diseret dari rumah oleh beberapa orang berseragam. “Hai… siapa kamu?!” jerit segerombolan orang yang tiba-tiba mendekati budak tersebut. “Saya Ahmad Izzah, sedang menunggu Ummi… ” jawabnya memohon belas kasih. “Hah… siapa namamu budak, cuba ulangi!” bentak salah seorang dari mereka. “Saya Ahmad Izzah… ” dia kembali menjawab dengan agak kasar. Tiba-tiba “Plak! sebuah tamparan mendarat di pipi si kecil. “Hai budak… ! Wajahmu cantik tapi namamu hodoh. Aku benci namamu.

Sekarang kutukar namamu dengan nama yang lebih baik. Namamu sekarang Adolf Roberto… Awas! Jangan kau sebut lagi namamu yang buruk itu. Kalau kau sebut lagi nama lamamu itu, nanti akan kubunuh!” ancam laki-laki itu.” Tubuh budak itu mengigil ketakutan sambil berjuraian airmatanya kerana terlalu sedih kerana diperlakukan sebegitu.

Dia hanya menurut ketika gerombolan itu membawanya keluar dari kawasan tempat penyiksaan tawanan Akhirnya budak yang comel itu hidup bersama mereka. Tiba-tiba vRoberto tersedar dari menungannya yang panjang. Pemuda itu melompat ke arah sang tahanan. Secepat kilat dirobeknya baju penjara yang melekat pada tubuh sang ustaz. Ia mencari-cari sesuatu di pusat laki-laki itu. Ketika ia menemukan sebuah tanda hitam ia berteriak histeria, “Abi… Abi… Abi… ” Ia pun menangis keras, tak ubahnya seperti Ahmad Izzah dulu. Fikirannya terus bergelut dengan masa lalunya. Ia masih ingat betul, bahwa buku kecil yang ada di dalam genggamannya adalah Kitab Suci milik bapanya, yang dulu sering dibawa dan dibaca ayahnya ketika hendak menidurkannya. Ia jua ingat betul ayahnya mempunyai tanda hitam pada bahagian pusat.

Pemuda bengis itu terus meraung dan memeluk erat tubuh tua nan lemah. Tampak sekali ada penyesalan yang amat dalam atas tingkah-lakunya selama ini. Lidahnya yang sudah berpuluh-puluh tahun lupa akan Islam, saat itu dengan spontan menyebut, “Abi… aku masih ingat alif, ba, ta, tha… ” Hanya sebatas kata itu yang masih terakam dalam benaknya.

Sang ustaz segera membuka mata ketika merasakan ada titisan hangat yang membasahi wajahnya. Dengan tatapan samar dia masih dapat melihat seseorang yang tadi menyeksanya habis-habisan kini sedang memeluknya. “Tunjuki aku pada jalan yang telah engkau tempuhi Abi, tunjukkan aku pada jalan itu… ” Terdengar suara Roberto meraung sambil memeluk erat bapanya.

Sang ustaz yang telah uzur itu terpaksa menghela nafasnya berkali-kali sebelum dapat berkata-kata, lalu memejamkan matanya. Air matanya pun turut berlinang. Betapa tidak, jika setelah puluhan tahun, ternyata ia masih sempat berjumpa dengan buah hatinya, di tempat ini. Sungguh tak masuk akal. Ini semata-mata bukti kebesaran Allah.

Sang ayah dengan susah payah masih boleh berucap. “Anakku, pergilah engkau ke Mesir. Di sana banyak saudaramu. Katakan saja bahwa engkau kenal dengan Syaikh Abdullah Fattah Ismail Al-Andalusy. Belajarlah engkau di negeri itu,” Setelah selesai berpesan sang ustaz menghembuskan nafas terakhir dengan berbekal kalimah indah “Asyahadu anla IllaahailALlah, wa asyahadu anna Muhammad Rasullullah… . Beliau pergi dengan menemui Ar-Rabbnya dengan tersenyum, setelah sekian lama berjuang dibumi yang fana ini.

Kini Ahmah Izzah telah menjadi seorang alim di Mesir. Seluruh hidupnya dibaktikan untuk agamanya, Islam, sebagai ganti kekafiran yang di masa muda sempat disandangnya. Banyak pemuda Islam dari berbagai penjuru berguru dengannya… 

source: from the notes my friend write in the fb.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

this is my personal reminder

yeah...
this is my personal reminder
but somehow i feel like wanting to share it

1.There are five remedies of heart:
First, read the Quran and understand its meaning
Second, do the night prayer
Third, gather with pious people
Fourth, fast (literally: keep a hungry stomach) regularly
Fifth, do long zikir at night

people always have problems...
hence, if i feel like troubled with sorts of problems...
of friends, classes, exams....
i will rush for this remedies
and insyaAllah...
Allah itu MAHA MENDENGAR
He will listens, when others don't even want to listens to our story
and insyaAllah
we will feel ease at heart.
insyaAllah.

2.this one i got this morning from fb, ilmislam.com
...hm... :)
Aku sayang kamu dengan caraku tersendiri.
Jika mereka memilih untuk kerap bertemu, aku memilih untuk tidak bertemu.
Jika mereka memilih untuk kerap berhubungan, aku memilih untuk tidak berhubungan.
Jika mereka memilih untuk selalu saling mengingati, aku memilih untuk tidak mengingatimu.
Jika memilih untuk saling merindu, aku memilih untuk tidak merinduimu…
Kerana apa pilihanku berbeza dengan mereka???

Kerana engkau belum tentu menjadi milikku.
Aku lebih senang bertemu Pelindungku,
aku lebih suka berhubungan dengan Kekasihku dengan berdoa,
aku lebih suka mengingati Dia yang sering mengingati ku,
aku sayang kamu tapi aku lebih sayang Dia…

Terima kasih kerana memahami caraku. moga Allah redha dengan caraku ini :)

i love you in my own way
If they choose to meet regularly, I choose not to meet you.
If they choose to contact you frequently, I choose not to contact you.
If they choose to always remember each other, I choose not to remember you.
If they choose to miss each other, I choose not to miss you ...
why my choices are so differed from theirs?

because you are not certainly mine 
but i feel better when i am with HIM
i  love to be with HIM by prayers
i love to remember HIM more because HE always remembers me
i love you... but i love HIM more

thank you for your understanding of my way. may Allah bless me and my way.

"Ya ALLAH

jika dia benar untukku,
dekatkan hatinya dgn hatiku,
jika dia bukan milikku,
damaikanlah hatiku dgn
ketentuanMu...."

"YA ALLAH
if he is the one meant for me
make both of our hearts close together
but if he is not meant for me
make my heart feels peace with 
it.."

check this out 




Monday, November 21, 2011

a new view dentistry course have

i'm currently the 2nd year student of UiTM, 
Faculty of Dentistry
insyaAllah
and starting last 3 weeks,
right before we, Malaysians
celebrate Eidul Adha, 
we started entering lab
to start the Operative Dent. or Prosthodontics works
insyaAllah

i'm doing the Prostho things, since i'm in group C
and yeah..i'm doing the dentures for the phantom's heads..
how's that??
freaking eh??
hahahhah...

at first..
i really thought like..
HA??? have i fully, mentally, physically prepared to face these dental works??
ya Allah
have i equipped myself enough to endure those things??
ya Allah...

all these while,
i have been exposed to medical stuff only
and some wax teeth carving works last year
but despite all, 
lab really meant blood, bacteria, tumors
necrosis, thrombosis and all we can see during lab works
but in DENTAL lab....
it means different

you can see these....




at first
i was wondering..
how on earth could I manage all these things....
all the appliances, materials, vaseline, flame, wax...everything!
then pop!
the very first day
we had our Prostho demo
and we are instructed to start the work the very same day
let's not waste the time!
oh yeah...
and with little knowledge we had during the demo sessions and lectures
we began the works
to produce the first impression 
in order to  
produce the phantom's head's (should be my patients-to-be, insyaAllah )
dentures.

you know
looking at those appliances for the first time
i re-remembered my fear i used to have during the childhood
whenever there were the dental visit by the hospital 
to my school
and when the class monitors
were at the front
with the green dental cards in their gasps
and when all eyes fixed on the cards
and he was mumbling about the visit
slowly, i would wish
that MY card was not there
and i didn't need to see the dentist

man....
it's freaking scary when i had to march to the sick bay 
when i received  card
to have my teeth rechecked
but i think i still remembered the first time,when
i encountered the real dentist
haha

well i could only saw her eyes, right?
she was wearing mask at the time
her face was so calm and she was wearing spectacles
but i could say
she was a beautiful woman
for her eyes is so brightly shining when she saw me
freaking cold on the dental chair
i guessed she was smiling at the time
haha
and now
i think i want to be like her
insyaAllah
for her smiling eyes that day
eased my heart
and
put me in peace.


InsyaAllah. 


p/s: let's register haji at Lembaga Tabung Haji.thirah baru je daftar td,
tp.... turn insyaAllah, 2043...
so jom daftar cepat2! (^.^)

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

the world is moving fast

there have been lots of changes
these few days
yeah....new year is here...
the school is gonna opened 
the sem is gonna end soon
and yeah...the final exam...
will be around these few days...

but what i really wanna take the point out here
is not about any of those really
but it is more to the paradigms changes i think Malaysians are moving to
specifically MUSLIMS MALAYS(MM)

i am 20 years old
ans i think is old enough to give out opinion

and in my opinions
many of my friends
which during their teens days are all the bad bad people
turn out good these few years around
i am quite observant and there are few people i have 
observed, quite closely and secretly
showed me some positive changes

they become more humble than before and their attitudes
MasyaAllah ^^
i really fond of them now
and i really pray for them to be istiqomah in what they are doing

some that i observed
already wear purdah...
which i couldn't find the courage in wearing it
i really don't know why
but truthfully
last year, my heart did urges me to do so
but somehow... 
i still not wear the purdah up to this day

another that i observed
already covered their hair and aurat nicely
and completely
Alhamdulillah....
i will always pray for them
they fought bravely in doing so
i am so proud of you
REALLY
hidayah(THE LIGHT) is from Allah SWT
for you to follow His Guidance
and really, you will find no imperfections in His Guidance

some really have started considered Islam in their lives
yeah....life without religion is like the world without the air
really
human are born to embrace religion, specifically ISLAM
people may say lots of things like
when you have religion you can't enjoy the lives
you can't date girls
you can't do crazy crazy things
which are WRONG!!!
in fact having Islam in my live really teach me to be a better person
which enjoy live in more enjoyable beneficial ways
and i really feel fortunate and happy
because when i am sad or happy or under pressure or scare etc etc etc...
i always have Allah with me
insyaAllah ^^
and i know that what i am doing is observed closely by HIM
and i was protected by HIM
i feel immediately in love and the love is so pure i can't say how

indeed i am no ulamak or student that study Syariah, Al-Quran and Hadis at school
but as time moving 
the need of religion grows in me 
and that time i was school-transfered to a boarding school
there, i learnt as much as i want about Islam
and now insyaAllah i am proud to say that
 i am proud to be a MUSLIMAH

and i really want to see people around me embracing Islam
because once you do that you may notice that you get all the things you need
calmness, soothe, energy, all...
and you may see that there are good changes Islam brings to you
you may have better view of life
and your life quality is actually improved!
Islam teaches you to be a good person which do good deeds

hm... i wanna say no more
but i will pray that
we will all be in Allah's Love and Barakah
insyaAllah
.....AMIN.....







Monday, December 26, 2011

my last birthday present

that day
i received a book from my dearest friend
she is my friend since i was 10
and now i am 20
well yeah...
it has been 10 years we have seen each other

thank you, Da for the perfect present!

she gave me this
Motivasi Menjadi Wanita Paling Bahagia
by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni

the book is AWESOME!!!
i really want to suggest it to any of the girls, woman, ladies
out there to reach out and read the book!
really!!
it will not be a waste, u know!

the book really teach me to think differently of the way i see the world
and the way i feel.
every words is based on concrete proofs from Al-Quran or quoted from al-Hadith itself

a blog about the book

next time i will update more about the book
i still halfway through the book and can't wait to catch the final page!





that day
i received a book from my dearest friend
she is my friend since i was 10
and now i am 20
well yeah...
it has been 10 years we have seen each other

thank you, Da for the perfect present!

she gave me this
Motivasi Menjadi Wanita Paling Bahagia
by Dr 'Aidh Abdullah Al-Qarni

the book is AWESOME!!!
i really want to suggest it to any of the girls, woman, ladies
out there to each out and read the book!
really!!
it will not be a waste, u know!

the book really teach me to think differently of the way i see the world
and the way i feel.
every words is based on concrete proofs from Al-Quran or quoted from al-Hadith itself

a blog about the book

next time i will update more about the book
i still halfway through the book and can't wait to catch the final page!





Wednesday, December 21, 2011

self pondering

i am pondering myself
curing myself
light-cured, self-cured
about several things during these few CRAZY-OUS weeks
seriously....
too much hectic, 
the tense is always in the air during the day
but the air will quickly dissolves when the sun sets..
unique, is it?

ok! let's get serious...
i am currently doing my first complete denture on the phantom head
my very first patient..tqvm!
i really don't wanna complain much about this
well, this is the bread and butter of mine in the future, right?
insyaAllah....
but what i really wanna talk about is about the story behind the "haruk pikuk kehidupan itu"

when i do the working and all the hand-skills polishing things
few things that i notice are
the true colours of people are flowing out from every corners, no matters how hard they try to cover those things 
i really do not say that the colours are not that nice
some are really nice and beautiful
but some....hm....not so nice that i tried to ignore and stay away from

when we do the works
actually we are simultaneouly practising our everyday-life-skills that we have
as for me, i am not someone that will hold firm my stand to others
enough if only me and HIM and few people know about it
i prefer not to win, if that will make others happy...

but these everyday-life-skills will eventually become our habits
and if the habits is to always take over others
to always look down on people
to always be the dictators one...
as time goes on...
i think we will self-develop into the Julius Caesar,Kim Jong Il,Mussolini...
or perhaps Hitler???

a reminder to me future self and people around me
we are not perfect...
the last perfect on Earth is our Last Prophet, NABI MUHAMMAD SAW
and we are not 100% pure
we are in fact, full of sins and dirt each days..
hence, 
let's give this a thought
look around us, we are surrounding by THINGS
not only human, 
there's also insects
birds
pencils
water
trees
clothes
air
bla bla bla...
hence, we are not alone
we have to adapt well with these things, these elements
we have to be in homeostatics environment with them!
imagine what will happen if water hate us..?
Water will stay reaaallll away from us
we will be reaaalllly dehydrated
and mind, human can only survive 3 days without water..
hence eventually, with only 3 days... we die....

people are unique in their own ways
each one is wayyy different from the others
hence, let's just be friends with everyone
stop look down on others
we are neither superior nor inferior to them
if they are the types of loves-to-win-in-everything
let them win, so that you can keep your relationship ok
and you are doing good job, you are keeping their heart healthy
athough yours a bit scratchy...it's ok... time heals everything
insyaAllah

stop be loudly comparative
competition is ok
but keep that in yourself only, please
mentioning about that will either psycho other people
or maybe you, yourself become a psycho
due to the answers you receive is a mere nodding

that's why 
to estimate your working quality or the progressions
simply do a little, silent observations on others
without them knowing
this is safer, and will keep your heart healthier
insyaAllah

HENCE!!!
let's give these few things a thought, ATHIRAH AZIZ!!!!
it is not a waste to use your brain sometimes...haha

hm!
time to sleep !
Assalamualaikum!






Monday, November 28, 2011

Syeikh Ahmad Izzah Al-Andalusi and Adolf Ruberto

Suatu petang, di Penjara tempat tahanan orang-orang di situ terasa hening mencengkam. Jeneral Adolf Roberto, penguasa penjara yang terkenal bengis, sedang memeriksa setiap kamar tahanan.

Apabila beliau melalui setiap sel, kesemua banduan penjara terus membongkokkan badan mereka serendah-rendahnya ketika penguasa penjara itu melintasi di hadapan mereka. Kerana kalau tidak, sepatu boot keras milik tuan Roberto itu akan mendarat di wajah mereka. Ketika melalui satu sel telinga Roberto terdengar suara seseorang sedang mengalunkan ayat-ayat yang amat ia benci apabila mendengarnya “Hai orang tua bodoh… hentikan bacaanmu itu yang sungguh menjengkelkan.. Hentikan… !” Teriak Roberto sekeras-kerasnya sambil membelalakkan mata. Namun apa yang terjadi? Lelaki dikamar tahanan tadi tetap saja bersenandung dengan khusyuknya.

Roberto bertambah berang. Pemimpin penjara itu menghampiri kamar tahanan yang luasnya tak lebih sekadar cukup untuk seorang. Dengan marah ia menyemburkan ludahnya ke wajah tua sang tahanan yang kelihatan sangat kurus kering dan kulit yang berkedut sehingga menampakkan rangka tulang dibadannya. Tak puas sampai di situ, ia lalu menyucuh wajah dan seluruh badan orang tua itu dengan rokoknya yang menyala. Sungguh ajaib… Tak terdengar secuit pun keluh kesakitan. Bibir yang pucat kering milik sang tahanan terus melaungkan kata Ya Rabbi, wa ana abduka… Tahanan lain yang menyaksikan kebiadaban itu serentak bertakbir sambil berkata, “Bersabarlah wahai ustaz… InsyaAllah tempatmu di Syurga.”

Melihat kegigihan orang tua yang dipanggil ustaz oleh sesama tahanan, penguasa penjara itu bertambah memuncak marahnya. Ia memerintahkan pegawai penjara untuk membuka sel, dan ditariknya tubuh orang tua itu keras-kerasnya sehingga terjerembab di lantai. “Hai orang tua busuk! Bukankah engkau tahu, aku tidak suka bahasa hinamu itu?! Aku tidak suka apa-apa yang berhubung dengan agamamu! Ketahuilah orang tua dungu, bumi Sepanyol ini kini telah berada dalam kekuasaan bapa kami, Tuhan *** Anda telah membuat aku benci dan geram dengan suara-suara yang seharusnya tidak didengari lagi di sini. Sebagai balasannya engkau akan kubunuh. Kecuali, kalau engkau mahu minta maaf dan masuk agama kami.” Mendengar “khutbah” itu orang tua itu mendongakkan kepala, menatap Roberto dengan tatapan yang tajam dan dingin. Ia lalu berucap,

“Sungguh… aku sangat merindukan kematian, agar aku segera dapat menjumpai kekasihku yang amat kucintai, iaitu Allah. Bila kini aku berada di puncak kebahagiaan karena akan segera menemuiNya, patutkah aku berlutut kepadamu, hai manusia yang terkutuk? Jika aku turuti kemahuanmu, tentu aku termasuk manusia yang amat bodoh.”


Sejurus sahaja kata-kata itu terhenti, sepatu milik Roberto terus mendarat di wajah lelaki tua itu. Tendangan sepatu yang kuat kemuka lelaki tua itu menyebabkan beliau terhuyung hayang. Kemudian jatuh terkapar di lantai penjara dengan wajah berlumuran darah. Ketika itulah dari saku baju penjaranya yang telah lusuh, meluncur sebuah buku kecil. Adolf Roberto terus memungutnya. Namun tangan sang Ustaz telah terlebih dahulu mengambil dan menggenggamnya erat-erat. “Berikan buku itu, hai lelaki tua yang bodoh !” bentak Roberto. “Haram bagi tanganmu yang kafir dan berlumuran dosa untuk menyentuh barang suci ini!”ucap sang ustaz dengan tatapan menghina pada Roberto. Tak ada jalan lain, akhirnya Roberto mengambil jalan paksa untuk mendapatkan buku itu. Sepatu boot seberat dua kilogram itu terus menginjak jari-jari tangan sang ustaz yang telah lemah. Suara gemeretak tulang yang patah terdengar menggetarkan hati.

Namun tidak demikian bagi Roberto. Laki-laki bengis itu malah merasa bangga mendengar gemeretak tulang yang terputus. Bahkan penguasa penjara itu merasa lebih puas lagi ketika melihat titisan darah mengalir dari jari-jari musuhnya yang telah hancur. Setelah tangan tua itu tidak lagi berdaya diangkat, Roberto memungut buku kecil yang membuatnya baran. Perlahan Roberto membuka sampul buku yang telah lusuh. Beliau seakan terpaku melihat buku dan termenung seketika seperti memikirkan sesuatu. “Ah… seperti aku pernah mengenal buku ini. Tetapi bila? Ya, aku pernah mengenal buku ini.”

Suara hati Roberto bertanya-tanya. Perlahan Roberto membuka lembaran pertama itu. Pemuda berumur tiga puluh tahun itu bertambah terkejut tatkala melihat tulisan-tulisan “aneh” dalam buku itu. Rasanya ia pernah mengenal tulisan seperti itu dahulu. Namun, sekarang tak pernah dilihatnya di bumi Sepanyol. Akhirnya Roberto duduk di samping sang ustaz yang sedang melepaskan nafas-nafas terakhirnya. Wajah bengis pemuda kejam itu kini diliputi tanda tanya yang dalam. Mata Roberto rapat terpejam. Ia berusaha keras mengingat peristiwa yang dialaminya sewaktu masih kanak-kanak.

Perlahan, sketsa masa lalu itu tergambar kembali dalam ingatan Roberto. Pemuda itu teringat ketika suatu petang di masa kanak-kanaknya terjadi kekecohan besar di negeri tempat kelahirannya ini. Petang itu ia melihat peristiwa yang mengerikan di tempat para tawanan menjalani hukuman (tempat penyiksaan kaum muslimin di Andalusia). Di tempat itu tengah berlangsung pesta darah dan nyawa. Beribu-ribu jiwa tak berdosa gugur di bumi Andalusia. Di hujung kiri kawasan penyiksaan tersebut, beberapa puluh wanita berhijab (jilbab) digantung pada tiang-tiang besi yang terpancang tinggi. Tubuh mereka yang mati tergantung terbuai-buai ditiup angin petang yang kencang, membuat pakaian muslimah yang dikenakan berkibar-kibar di udara.

Sementara, di kawasan tengah, ratusan pemuda Islam dibakar hidup-hidup pada tiang-tiang, hanya karena tidak mahu memasuki agama yang dibawa oleh para penceroboh. Seorang kanak- kanak laki-laki comel dan tampan, berumur sekitar tujuh tahun, malam itu masih berdiri tegak di kawasan hukuman telah senyap. Korban-korban kebiadaban itu telah syahid semua. Kanak kanak comel itu melimpahkan airmatanya menatap sang ibu yang terkulai lemah di tiang gantungan. Perlahan-lahan kanak - kanak itu mendekati tubuh sang ummi yang tak sudah bernyawa, sambil menarik-narik pakaian yang dipakai oleh sang ummi. Sang anak itu berkata dengan suara parau, “Ummi, ummi, mari kita pulang. Hari telah malam. Bukankah ummi telah berjanji malam ini akan mengajariku lagi tentang alif, ba, ta, tsa… .? Ummi, cepat pulang ke rumah ummi… “

Budak kecil itu akhirnya menangis semakin kuat, ketika sang ummi tidak jua menyahut ucapannya. Ia semakin bingung dan takut, tak tahu apa yang harus dibuat . Untuk pulang ke rumah pun ia tak tahu arah. Akhirnya budak itu berteriak memanggil ayahnya, “Abi… Abi… Abi… ” Namun ia segera terhenti berteriak memanggil sang bapa ketika teringat petang kelmarin bapanya diseret dari rumah oleh beberapa orang berseragam. “Hai… siapa kamu?!” jerit segerombolan orang yang tiba-tiba mendekati budak tersebut. “Saya Ahmad Izzah, sedang menunggu Ummi… ” jawabnya memohon belas kasih. “Hah… siapa namamu budak, cuba ulangi!” bentak salah seorang dari mereka. “Saya Ahmad Izzah… ” dia kembali menjawab dengan agak kasar. Tiba-tiba “Plak! sebuah tamparan mendarat di pipi si kecil. “Hai budak… ! Wajahmu cantik tapi namamu hodoh. Aku benci namamu.

Sekarang kutukar namamu dengan nama yang lebih baik. Namamu sekarang Adolf Roberto… Awas! Jangan kau sebut lagi namamu yang buruk itu. Kalau kau sebut lagi nama lamamu itu, nanti akan kubunuh!” ancam laki-laki itu.” Tubuh budak itu mengigil ketakutan sambil berjuraian airmatanya kerana terlalu sedih kerana diperlakukan sebegitu.

Dia hanya menurut ketika gerombolan itu membawanya keluar dari kawasan tempat penyiksaan tawanan Akhirnya budak yang comel itu hidup bersama mereka. Tiba-tiba vRoberto tersedar dari menungannya yang panjang. Pemuda itu melompat ke arah sang tahanan. Secepat kilat dirobeknya baju penjara yang melekat pada tubuh sang ustaz. Ia mencari-cari sesuatu di pusat laki-laki itu. Ketika ia menemukan sebuah tanda hitam ia berteriak histeria, “Abi… Abi… Abi… ” Ia pun menangis keras, tak ubahnya seperti Ahmad Izzah dulu. Fikirannya terus bergelut dengan masa lalunya. Ia masih ingat betul, bahwa buku kecil yang ada di dalam genggamannya adalah Kitab Suci milik bapanya, yang dulu sering dibawa dan dibaca ayahnya ketika hendak menidurkannya. Ia jua ingat betul ayahnya mempunyai tanda hitam pada bahagian pusat.

Pemuda bengis itu terus meraung dan memeluk erat tubuh tua nan lemah. Tampak sekali ada penyesalan yang amat dalam atas tingkah-lakunya selama ini. Lidahnya yang sudah berpuluh-puluh tahun lupa akan Islam, saat itu dengan spontan menyebut, “Abi… aku masih ingat alif, ba, ta, tha… ” Hanya sebatas kata itu yang masih terakam dalam benaknya.

Sang ustaz segera membuka mata ketika merasakan ada titisan hangat yang membasahi wajahnya. Dengan tatapan samar dia masih dapat melihat seseorang yang tadi menyeksanya habis-habisan kini sedang memeluknya. “Tunjuki aku pada jalan yang telah engkau tempuhi Abi, tunjukkan aku pada jalan itu… ” Terdengar suara Roberto meraung sambil memeluk erat bapanya.

Sang ustaz yang telah uzur itu terpaksa menghela nafasnya berkali-kali sebelum dapat berkata-kata, lalu memejamkan matanya. Air matanya pun turut berlinang. Betapa tidak, jika setelah puluhan tahun, ternyata ia masih sempat berjumpa dengan buah hatinya, di tempat ini. Sungguh tak masuk akal. Ini semata-mata bukti kebesaran Allah.

Sang ayah dengan susah payah masih boleh berucap. “Anakku, pergilah engkau ke Mesir. Di sana banyak saudaramu. Katakan saja bahwa engkau kenal dengan Syaikh Abdullah Fattah Ismail Al-Andalusy. Belajarlah engkau di negeri itu,” Setelah selesai berpesan sang ustaz menghembuskan nafas terakhir dengan berbekal kalimah indah “Asyahadu anla IllaahailALlah, wa asyahadu anna Muhammad Rasullullah… . Beliau pergi dengan menemui Ar-Rabbnya dengan tersenyum, setelah sekian lama berjuang dibumi yang fana ini.

Kini Ahmah Izzah telah menjadi seorang alim di Mesir. Seluruh hidupnya dibaktikan untuk agamanya, Islam, sebagai ganti kekafiran yang di masa muda sempat disandangnya. Banyak pemuda Islam dari berbagai penjuru berguru dengannya… 

source: from the notes my friend write in the fb.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

this is my personal reminder

yeah...
this is my personal reminder
but somehow i feel like wanting to share it

1.There are five remedies of heart:
First, read the Quran and understand its meaning
Second, do the night prayer
Third, gather with pious people
Fourth, fast (literally: keep a hungry stomach) regularly
Fifth, do long zikir at night

people always have problems...
hence, if i feel like troubled with sorts of problems...
of friends, classes, exams....
i will rush for this remedies
and insyaAllah...
Allah itu MAHA MENDENGAR
He will listens, when others don't even want to listens to our story
and insyaAllah
we will feel ease at heart.
insyaAllah.

2.this one i got this morning from fb, ilmislam.com
...hm... :)
Aku sayang kamu dengan caraku tersendiri.
Jika mereka memilih untuk kerap bertemu, aku memilih untuk tidak bertemu.
Jika mereka memilih untuk kerap berhubungan, aku memilih untuk tidak berhubungan.
Jika mereka memilih untuk selalu saling mengingati, aku memilih untuk tidak mengingatimu.
Jika memilih untuk saling merindu, aku memilih untuk tidak merinduimu…
Kerana apa pilihanku berbeza dengan mereka???

Kerana engkau belum tentu menjadi milikku.
Aku lebih senang bertemu Pelindungku,
aku lebih suka berhubungan dengan Kekasihku dengan berdoa,
aku lebih suka mengingati Dia yang sering mengingati ku,
aku sayang kamu tapi aku lebih sayang Dia…

Terima kasih kerana memahami caraku. moga Allah redha dengan caraku ini :)

i love you in my own way
If they choose to meet regularly, I choose not to meet you.
If they choose to contact you frequently, I choose not to contact you.
If they choose to always remember each other, I choose not to remember you.
If they choose to miss each other, I choose not to miss you ...
why my choices are so differed from theirs?

because you are not certainly mine 
but i feel better when i am with HIM
i  love to be with HIM by prayers
i love to remember HIM more because HE always remembers me
i love you... but i love HIM more

thank you for your understanding of my way. may Allah bless me and my way.

"Ya ALLAH

jika dia benar untukku,
dekatkan hatinya dgn hatiku,
jika dia bukan milikku,
damaikanlah hatiku dgn
ketentuanMu...."

"YA ALLAH
if he is the one meant for me
make both of our hearts close together
but if he is not meant for me
make my heart feels peace with 
it.."

check this out 




Monday, November 21, 2011

a new view dentistry course have

i'm currently the 2nd year student of UiTM, 
Faculty of Dentistry
insyaAllah
and starting last 3 weeks,
right before we, Malaysians
celebrate Eidul Adha, 
we started entering lab
to start the Operative Dent. or Prosthodontics works
insyaAllah

i'm doing the Prostho things, since i'm in group C
and yeah..i'm doing the dentures for the phantom's heads..
how's that??
freaking eh??
hahahhah...

at first..
i really thought like..
HA??? have i fully, mentally, physically prepared to face these dental works??
ya Allah
have i equipped myself enough to endure those things??
ya Allah...

all these while,
i have been exposed to medical stuff only
and some wax teeth carving works last year
but despite all, 
lab really meant blood, bacteria, tumors
necrosis, thrombosis and all we can see during lab works
but in DENTAL lab....
it means different

you can see these....




at first
i was wondering..
how on earth could I manage all these things....
all the appliances, materials, vaseline, flame, wax...everything!
then pop!
the very first day
we had our Prostho demo
and we are instructed to start the work the very same day
let's not waste the time!
oh yeah...
and with little knowledge we had during the demo sessions and lectures
we began the works
to produce the first impression 
in order to  
produce the phantom's head's (should be my patients-to-be, insyaAllah )
dentures.

you know
looking at those appliances for the first time
i re-remembered my fear i used to have during the childhood
whenever there were the dental visit by the hospital 
to my school
and when the class monitors
were at the front
with the green dental cards in their gasps
and when all eyes fixed on the cards
and he was mumbling about the visit
slowly, i would wish
that MY card was not there
and i didn't need to see the dentist

man....
it's freaking scary when i had to march to the sick bay 
when i received  card
to have my teeth rechecked
but i think i still remembered the first time,when
i encountered the real dentist
haha

well i could only saw her eyes, right?
she was wearing mask at the time
her face was so calm and she was wearing spectacles
but i could say
she was a beautiful woman
for her eyes is so brightly shining when she saw me
freaking cold on the dental chair
i guessed she was smiling at the time
haha
and now
i think i want to be like her
insyaAllah
for her smiling eyes that day
eased my heart
and
put me in peace.


InsyaAllah. 


p/s: let's register haji at Lembaga Tabung Haji.thirah baru je daftar td,
tp.... turn insyaAllah, 2043...
so jom daftar cepat2! (^.^)