boys are idiot! throw rock at them!

i cried when i typed this entry

this week has been too stressful for me maybe

but this one situation

i really

will not forget it all my life

I REALLY HATE ENGINEER STUDENTS!!!!!!!

can you stop the catcalls you did to us girls

i feel humiliated today!!!!!

realllly!!!!!!!!!!

i were alone,okay

from zohor prayer

i went to my level 6 lecture hall and there i saw a big crowd of bays

sitting at the hallway

how do i supposed to walk that way

i am ALONE!!!

so i went up a level

everything is clear

i praised Allah for that

but not for long..........

then there come a big hang over with upper level expose

like a doom there

there are the engineering students hanging around there at the pagar2 tu

to avoid attention

ak just msuk dlm bejalan dlm this one girls gp tu la..

then i thought i can go on orait by that!

but...........

this really humiliated me for a lifetime

there come a voice

eh...dentist....pew.....dentist.......dentist.....

everybody just look at me like a freak!

i have enough...

i speed up!

the calls continue

i reallllllllllyyyyyyyyyy hate that boy

really!

whoever you are

i don't know and i don't care!

but don't you care to come in front of me!!!!!

you really broke my heart!

this is the first time this thing, which i fear the most,

which is the reason i keep distant from boys

which is also the reason i avoid talking to boys

which is also the reason i wear big2 hijab

which is the reason i covert my aurat

which is also the reason i lower my gaze

which is also the reason for my crying now........

i have commited a sinful sin now

i have attracted man to focus on me

i have not succedded to be a good muslimah

i have done evil2222 thing to my Allah

i feel really shameful now!!!!

Ya Allah

ak x fhm kenapa dorg still nk tgk pompuan

specifically ak!

I AM NOT A PRINCESSLY GOOD LOOKING

why!!!!!!!

ak x layan dorg pun

sumpah!!

ak x ckp ngan dorg

x tgk pun muka dorg

x penah2 ak tenung mata dorg lagi!!

u the catcall boy!

ak thu time tu ak sorang je firstie dentist wat jln kat area tu

memg silap ae ak pilh naek tgkat tujuh tadi...

ak memg benci ko

sapa2 pun la!

wat catcall tdi

u hurt my pride

u hurt my feeling

u make me crying

u make me feel shameful

when i just finish a prayer

i make

now i feel very shameful to Allah!!!!!!!

this is the first time i ever feel this humiliated!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ei catcall boy!!!!!!!

i really dun want to see ur face!

i really hate you for making catcall

that make very head turn to my direction!

now i suggest u pray for ur safety

everythiing has a payment

whether by cheque, cash or by coins!

better watch out!

boys are stupid!!

throw rocks at them!!!

kita selalu disakiti kan??

korang...x pe kan kalau kita maaf je orang tu walau dia bt kita sakit sgt2..

korang habiskan bejam bt something for your both benefit tp dia mcm tolak mentah2 je keje korang..

x pe ke kalau kita just forgive and forget dia??

x pe ke kalau kita nangis skjp then kita trik nafas...and that's it!

x pe ke kalau kita menjerit memaki hamun dia dlm hati dalam 2 minit je sbb kita dah guna ms studi kita utk siapkan part keje kita wat kita dah decide, then dia kata kita guna cara baru..totally idea dia.

x pe ke kalau kita rs menyampah gile kat dia

x pe ke kalau kita rs mcm nk tengking je dia blik time dia tengking kita time kita give out opinion as a team mate

x pe ke kalau kita rs nk give up je keje ni bab dia dah mcm bossy gile, mcm wat keje sorang2, dah x perlu kita dah

x pe ke kalau kita ignore je order dia suh bt apa wat dia nk

x pe ke??...x pe ke??!!!...X PE KE????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

korang..ak rs amat penat and rs nk give up...

but chill je la wei... ak rs stakat ak mampu endure this ituation ak akn endure slgi boleh

ak x kata ak tabah tp tis situation...ak kena face jugak kan??!

kita x leh lari...kita kn brani...!!

psl dia...well let's see how it's going ok?

hm...so ak decide.. ak akan endure and follow je la ape dia ckp... kalau ak x leh sabar nnt..x pe kot..Allah slalu ngan ak..so..kalau ak ada masalah nnt..insyaAllah, Allah akan tolong... :')

oRaiT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahaha......ak dah bejaya bli bj wat slame ni ak haye mampu tgk je..

hm...

ok la

lawa kot...

kain cam keras2 ckit cam askar g2...tp x pe..ak suke

haha

i know

many will be coming real soon

so....

ok la...ni bj second wat ak bli wat mcm wat ak idam2

so...

haha...msti siblings ak tekejut kot ak pakai baju gn

with inner la...

of COZ!!

hri tu masa ak g majlis mak sdare ak kat kb

ank spupu ak pun tegur

dia kata nmpk laen ak pakai bj ni sgla bagai

haha

of coz la...mane penah ak pakai bj mcm ni

tp ak rs bes bab

bj ni labuh n bile ak buang belt dia

x la ketat mcm wat kita nmpk

tp still kena kurus sssssikitttt

ok la...

ak akn hunting for more dress labuh mcm ni lagi

stylo but islamic jgk...

kasi tutup sampai bwh k...

ps....ak x th pulak gmbr akn senget sgl bagai...sori...hehe..

wic ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAH..........

ak dah a spesis jrg usha brg lme2...

ye la..kalu dah tekad + bekenan tu sentap je la...

but this time..

it's very different

the thing i want to buy is a mp player + camera

firstly i want an ipod touch...

x murah tau...

tp ak thu sound build sony bes lg wei

reality kot...

bebelah bhg ni...

ak wat dah la resec c2 cn

sony memg bes kalu sound dia

tebaek a wei

tp haga dia ngan ipod lbih kureng je wei

plus ipod ade game..camera HD video...

er when it's video is only 0.7 je....er..

tp sony xseries x de camera kot!

plus app dia pun x byk..

ipod lebih thn lame battery dia

skrin pun lawa

tp ipod x support camera fx ok...

only screenshot je dia ambek..

WAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

susah sgt ke nk cri mp3 plus camera fx

ade tu memg ade.....kat light in the box.com

ok la murah dia...dlm 44.99 usd or around RM140..with free shipping

tp ak sure ag...x bincg ag ngan big bro...

tp ak thu..aim ak adalah mp3 and camera...

so bt ms skrg...ak nk doa...

moga2 sony wat kuar a device that ada build in mp3 mp5 player with camera function

AMEEN!!!

P/S....not YOUR DREAM...MY dream...!!!!

sedih....haih!angin btul rasenye...

hei manusia.....

semua x sempurna....manela ade org sempurna...

hanye Allah SWT je wat sempurna

:'((

what do you expect....

even when there's something happen

even when there's only a little tiny lophole

why can't just everyone accept it and forget

why must everyone got so stress over it

think la wei...

everybody make mistake

from mistakes la kita blaja

kita jdi mature

x nk bt salah

g gua la...x pun g alaska

duk sane sorg2

even kat sane the occupants of that place x sure ag trime you ke x

x leh ke everyone just forgive and forget

besar sgt ke mistake tu

perlu ke ungkit2

perlu ke bt org trase sana sini

perlu ke ulang ayat ame

perlu ke

PERLU KER???!!!!

....hei..

kita kn blaja accept orang laen the way they are

kita x same mcmdorg

we can't expect them to be like us

they have their own lives...

huh...sedarlah wahai manusia bhw stp manusia itu berbeza2

ade hidung ade mata ade tlinga

tp laen2 hati n jantung k

2010 to 2011

waah............lagi 10 hri kot nk msuk 2011..tp up to today, penat gler la wei...hri2 rutin g klas at 8, blik at 5.30..eat, mandi...stud gp at 6, finish at 7.15...then what to say..my life began at 8...

why?? ye la...ak free utk bce buku2 cter at 8 je...bc stori books, makan, kacau coffee 3-in-1...biarlah...bak kata org...better have some than donot at all.. ak dah besyukur abih dah kot..

hm...actuallt arini ak ada a few qs utk ak taye diri ak..nice to know..ak student this one faculty wat ak X PENAH pikir nk jejak pun...but somehow tickling my days with the seniors, classmate and dean today...ak somehow wondering..why am i here?? what is actuaaly my aim when ak enter this fac..i don't mind the toughness of the course..(er....x..slh tu..ak mind wei...sgt2..) but why this course!!! ape aim ak dlm sehari2 ak hidup ni..ye la..of coz aim kita sebagai manusia nk hamabkan diri kat Allah...tp ak still don't get it when ari tu ak terclick the application for this fac and why ak bargain about this fac to my bro and family...

ape fokus ak sebenarnye...arini..ak dgr kat radio pg2 kul 7++ kat ikim.fm kita kn ada fokus dlm life ni. the penceramah bg contoh...kat this one paper ad satu je titik hitam and that paper is innocently plain white colour. all students, when are being asked about what they see at the paper, they say that they saw a tiny little dot..thenit happened that this sorg budak..angkat tangan and kata dia nmpk ketas a4 putih.see the difference...how an aim in our life akan change our every little point we have towards somthing....

nk thu x...td pun kat radio...the same penceramah stress that the 1st sight love is not quite exist..(er..asal ak wat msuk contoh nih...ei......)actually it all start with the 1st impression you made to someone.kita msti kata 1st impression is everything it is...btul...bab kalau kita dah aim kat that someone...everything kita nampak adalah ape wt kita nk nmpak...see?? so kita CHOOSE to see what we want to see.. then mulalah kita kata tu love at 1st sight...haha..mgarut je..(opps...sori kpd sape2 wat trase...ssghnye ape wat ak tulis adalah hasil tgn ak semuany...hm...jht btul tgn ni..)

so tulah....we choose what we want to be, we aim at it straigtforward and go strive for it...sbb x rugi kalau kita strive at something even when everyone kata that's impossible la....bab sebab this same reason la jgk mentol ada, Istanbul Islam punyer, Perang Khandak kita menang and just don't forget....ples..ALLAH slalu ad dgn kita walau time tu kita x igt kat DIA lgsg.....so see?? you never alone..even when everybody leave you, kita still ad ALLAH and kalau kita kita beriman dlm erti sbnr2 nya.. org2 mukmin yang khusyuk solatnya pun bersama kita...cuma kita x penah sedar.

InsyaAllah..

best sgt....

haha... td jalan2 ngan Sarah g SACC PKNS tasik shah alam....bes....bukan ape...1st time kot ak g tsik tuh... then seingt ak last ak g tasik time kat kmpp aritu...

then......

YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!

ak dah sukses membeli buku2 ape wat selama ini ak dream of...ye la...dulu duet x de sgt...nk mintak ngan parents...malas... nk simpan duet....hm...nnt mesti g bli mknn gok duet ak simpan tuh...tp skrang...walau x byk..tp ak dpt gak beli buku Hlovate, sophie kinsella...tp nk bli for one more day tu kan...hm...sape dah author dia....hm...lupe ;p ....HAH!Mitch Albom...bes wei..ak dah bace dah sikit kat umah kwn aku aritu..tp x abis la... but then that price at that time as compared to when i buy online at mphonline.com is more.....hm...what to say.....mahal la...sbb duet pun x brape ckup...(kena bajet kot...) sem bru nk stat...dah la duet sem ni x msuk2 ag..... tp x pe...ak dah puas hati..

hm...cuti mggu esok ni..ak dah ade aim dah...hehe...