the ZOO!!!!

before i proceed about the zoo trip i had been, i need to take time typing this post.... AAAAAAAA!!!!!! the stomach cramp is here!!!! dush!!! pedih woi!!!

k... this post will gonna be short and sweet.... (^.^)
the Zoo Negara or the National Zoo of Malaysia, is located in Selangor... and the place is awesome!!!!!!
the animals are superb! the guide tour is friendly and i wish to enjoy more Q's and A's than this one but, you know the lecturers team is with us, so it is sort of out-of-habit of me, to become talkative that day... wi..... :o

i love the aquarium the most! tha fish....!!!!!! what!!!!!! so big!!! and it is the first time, i watch the little penguinssss alive and dolphin, lions, lioness, a friendly black bear, a kangaroo-like animal(which use tail and 2 legs 2 walk), a BIG tortoise and all!!

dush! next time, insyaAllah, i will bring my family there! and mind, outside food can be taken into the zoo, and the family picnic is allowed there!!! so!!!!! let's have a picnic with the giraffes and zebras there, next time!!!

p/s> next time, i post the pictures..the net is slow..

my first visit to Bangi by KTM Comuter (ways to start a journey when you never know how)

yesterday, i went to my cousin's house in Bangi, Selangor. she is my so-called cousin and the only one that lives nearby me in Shah Alam. currently she's pregnant her third child and is living in Bandar Seri Mahkota, Bangi.

however, i never went there alone (even with family... only couple of times...2..3..)  and luckily i had Ina as my company... hm.. if it happened that i lost, haha... i, at least had her along with me.

with only a hint of " u take the next stop after UKM", strong-heartedly, i paved my way at 10.30 am. u know, for 1 year i'm in shah alam, the only usual route i take is from KL Central to KLIA or KL Central to Shah Alam. see?? and i only used the KTM komuter twice! the one i used to go to Sunway Piramid with my friends...all 4..5 of us! and last week, for KL Central-Mid Valley one way stop.

hm...and now, i have to hurdle my way alone..since Ina also is clueless about the comuter KTM thingy.
hm... however, the people, the city hustle, the map, help us a lot.

hence, first thing to do when you don't know how to start your journey is by trying to reach a counter. regardless it is a Qs counter, a ticket counter or a police booth. as for me, i reached for a ticket counter and ask the lady in-charge about tickets to Bangi. it's cheap: RM 3.70 for 8 stops..8!!!

then, try looking for a map. in KL Central, you will immediately recognize it is a map when you are around the ticket counter and you see that there are a crowd of people looking at the same way, while thinking. you see, there are lots of maps around the counter but people basically love to look down than look up when they want to think. and people love newer things than the older things. that's normal. that's why people will go for the standing map at the left of the counter and newer looking one. that way you will straightly know that they are having the same problem as you are and maybe you can start asking them ways to get to Bangi, for example.  

if you are still unsure about the route, ask around. however, limit yourself only to the old lady, the woman with shopping bags or the people with travelling bags. since, for me, that kind of people, basically have a reasonable reason to be at the place. however, i have no intention of saying that free-hand people or younger people have no reasonable reason to be there, but we have to take precaution right.

and a reminder to the man or non-old-folks people, please....! if you are in a public transport, and there is a middle-aged woman, old folks, kids around you, give them seats. if you don't want to leave your comfortable zone, share them.... it make no harm by sharing... instead, it livens up your soul by sharing. sharing is caring. caring is loving. i really hate and 'menyampah' when a man, doesn't give the seat to the lady with 6-8 years old kid, which is standing right in front of him! hm... even though you are with your sweetheart, why don't you show a little social caring skills towards  the society. it give no harm to leave your sweetheart for awhile you know. even more, it will show your sweetheart that you care about your surrounding and you are a good man.your sweetheart will love you even more, then.

hm...

hence, for a conclusion, public transport is a safe transport for me and KTM Comuter will travel you safely and soundly if you know HOW to tackle it. the most important is buy the right ticket, memorize your stop's name and carefully look after your stuff. choose people when you want to ask Qs.



P/S: i still don't know how to tackle small kids, helpless and clueless...

the learning hour is here

for the fresh beginning of this new semester....err... intersession actually..(well, i still got module to cover in this one-month session), what i could have express here is that, i hope for the fresh start. i mean, for what i had been through last few weeks, i hoped that my colleagues will actually try to understand me.

Alhamdulillah, i got some that actually understand me and befriend with me like before. like, insyaAllah,  Ina, Zaf and Irah. they actually know that i sat for that supp exam and know everything that goes around me last month, but they don't say a word about it and i know they curious. just.... i am sorry, i am not fully prepared to answered your curiosity.. insyaAllah, when time pass by... insyaAllah.

for now, i have a role to play in, in the coming group presentation session..haha... even though i play a minor part... (haha, only to control the slide to edit the presentation thingy...haha, well, i don't have to do the drama part... Alhamdulillah, insyaAllah...), but we have to present it by next week... for 45 minutes presentation on title, INFECTIVE ENDOCARDITIS(ie)..

ie is like sort of bacteria implantation on your heart wall. hence, by time, for sure, it will narrow your heart lumen(blood vessel), and lead you to high blood pressure. then, from bp, you'll get heart attack, stroke (when it attack your brain's blood vessel), and on higher stage, you may die. 

so we have to be creative to present that topic to the colleagues and lecturers.. since, there's allocated marks included for the big2 exam in november and final bms(basic med sc) exam in may 2012, insyaAllah.

p/s: my aim to achieve for this new semesters, and next2 semesters: I WANT TO BE INVISIBLE. I WISH, THEY WILL STOP LOOKING AT ME, FOR ME, AND ME! i want this to be achievable, since i hope to be the least well-known girl in the faculty. i don't like people to know me....insyaAllah. i hate publicity!!!!!!!! why??? since it is ridiculous!

selepas hurdle ak dah lalu bulan lepas, konklusi....

alhamdulillah....kami 11 orang pass exam ari tu, insyaAllah... firstly, time ak sapa shah alam, serius, x rs ak belong to this intersession prgm pun then ina la kata, tu sume pass, sambil tunjuk kat board, kat dean's office. serius...!!! ak rs x pecaya.. betul la kan...resepi kita nk success, DUIT, kita kena doa, usaha, sembahyang hajat slalu, Al-Quran jangan tinggal, then korang jgn slalu la duk depan pc kalu tgh study. sbb pun that kind of screen korang akan slalu terbawak2, ye la mula2, nk cari video muscle contraction. then tringat x bc ag update status kat dental gp fb. then mula la......

hm... dari 5 minit....jd 15 min..jd 1 H. then...hm...lps isyak bru sedar.. reading x bt ag...

alhamdulillah.... insyaAllah, lps ni, kick off dgn modul respiration. so blaja lung la pulok. naseb baek modul dental material x start ag, alhamdulillah, sebab x ambek ag gigi2 kat klinik2 ari tu..mintak2 gigi wat dentist swasta kumpul byk elok2 and kurang cavity... amin... insyaAllah...sbb seganla nk mintak kongsi ngan budak2 ni... memang la dorang byk kot dpt gg, tp segan la kan... gg wat kumpul tu pun, nk guna sampai clinical year... hm...mesti masing2 sayang nk lps gg masing2 kan...

lagi... hm..ape ye jln paling selamat nk bg bro kita kawin cpt...haha...kesian... dia dikelilingi oleh orang2 yang dah tunang, dah kawin...and dia x de pun sapa2 ag a.k.a solo... haha...dia ok, insyaAllah, doktor lagi, laki lagi...tp dia rendah la sikit dalam kategori laki tp dia ok la... dia slalu sisuk, dri kecik, dia x duk ngan kami pun. dia bdk asrama, padan la kan,anak sulung, kena la blaja adab sikit... so dia x rapat la ngan kami. ngan other boys dlm family je dia ngam. sbb ak prefer my other brothers, walau ak slalu dibuli oleh abang ke-2 ku, tp x pe, at least, ak ad sidekick adik pertama ak...haha, dia jenis kool adek pertama ak ni, tp senyap2, hm... bt kes byk dri abang ke-2 ak wat nakal. haha... dia la first dalam family ad telibat dlm kes pukul budak, gantung skolah..haha...skolah asrama bai.... sorang bt hal, ramai cikgu nk ngajar...

so skrg abang sulong ak tgh meracau nk cri a wife, hm... tp at least dia ok ngan pompuan, hm...kalau ak la, ngan lelaki....... haram.......ye la, x brape elok kan kita pompuan rapat2 ngan laki... huh..nk ckp ngan dorang pun pikir 2 3 4 5 kali, hm..last2 mintak tlg member suh ckp ngan bdk2 tu..  at least, ak thu ak pompuan. and ak sedar malu tu memang patut pun untuk sorang pompuan.. pakai tudung pun, cover aurat pun... well, at least, kalau nnt during the judgmental day, in hereafter, kat akhirat, insyaAllah, at least, suruhan wajib orang pompuan ak dah bt.. so x de la kena soal, insyaAllah...AllahuA'lam... .
tggu orang masuk minang la jak.... haha.. x pe, insyaAllah, lambat ckit je tu...nnt2 dpt la tu...insyaAllah jak...ingat... the one wat mu akan kawin ni, is the first outsider tau, masuk jd menantu dlm family ni...haha... oh..the same goes to my sister, Amirah Aziz.. haha.. your marriageable age is around the corner.....agaknya la... guy mcm mane akak ak minat...haha...

hm...sedap ngata orang.... well, for me, during study age, means now until i am 23 24, insyaAllah, there will be no outsider guy(s) for me, except if it is destined that i gonna have early marriage... haha... konfom la tak kan... x nye bagi bos2 ak, ak kawin muda.. ngaji pun x menentu ag... dental chair pun ak x serve ag. so to the old flame wat ak penah ter-'suka', well, terpaksa pendam la 3 4 thun ni. hm... insyaAllah.. my heart truthfully, sebenarnya, dah terisi ngan benda2 lain... no more space for the other things to fill in.

my fav qoute for now, sayang manusia ditinggalkan, sayang harta dizakatkan, sayang binatang dilepaskan, syang Ilahi, berkekalan selamanya di dunia dan akhirat insyaAllah....

a calm sense of human???? ada ker???

hm...that day, right after i finished my exam, i decided that i need a break. out of everything. the world keeps spinning, never stop, hence, to stop myself being dragged by the fast-forwarded time, i should spend some time reflecting and rethinking, reconstructing my mind, to power up my will power and everything.

hence, i spent quite some time at my grand's pondok. means, sort of old folks house, (for the lady only) but not that sort of fierce nurses, wheelchair patients and all the TV shows us, but that sort of little2 house, in front of a interwoven hills, in the countryside, near the primary school, the mosque and away from the town. the place is so calm. the makcik there is so nice and each time, you get free meals... hehe... well the Rumah Orang Tua Nurul Saadah always received rice, donations and you know, there is also a cook  and the old ladies don't have to cook back at their house. the ladies are not like the ones we see on TV, because the ladies over there are always busy with tajwid class, Al-Quran class, Tauhid class and also activities like aerobics and social networking, like when outsiders come and visit the house, so they will have a feast and gather around to greet the people. well,they are forced to live there. but rather, they choose to live there. the place is so calm...

the ladies are free to do their own chores too. like, you can do your gardening and when you have extra something you share with the others. somehow it sound like you are in a small village, but only the time has slowed down for you, because, majority of the ladies walk slowly, using sticks and talk slowly. you feel like appreciating your youth when you see them.

my grandma, MOK TOK, always tell me that we have to be thankful for the long age Allah lend us, not just that, be thankful for the health Allah lend us. it maybe someday, Allah want it return to Him, we have to be prepared for that. her long age, (~70-80 something...) is a miracle for her, for her conditions is like a tide, but for me, she is a strong lady. she has been through many hardships since young and my grandpa, has passed away long ago, but there she is, planting the trees, walking up and down her former house, back and forth to her old-age relatives and i know, she is feeling like it will be soon her time to ga, since many of our relatives, on her age, mostly have passed away. but it is true right that our time is  shorten on every second it passed.

hence, it is not just her, but us to start doing good deeds for our share in the hereafter.

(dush...x de gambar la nak tunjuk....haha... k..insyaAllah, lain kali...)

after a very long battle

i have been to lots of battle before, lots and lots of them. sometime i loss, sometime i won...somehow, they really could not match this my one little battle.

i was on the edge, i tripped, i died and if  i flew, i lived. this one little battle teach me somehow beyond that. when i was at the edge, i was hoping and hoping that somehow will actually come and help me. i was hoping for my family, my best friend and all of the people i knew. but yet, i know deep inside my heart, i was hoping that He(ALLAH) listen to me and help me out, because, at that point, when i was at the edge, i come to a thinking....


i have my family and Ika with me now, but what about the future?? will they always be with me???


then one day, it happened that my best friend forget to bring along her handphone to her college and her collage is 3 hours journey by car. i called and called her repeatedly each day when i felt in vain, i felt helpless. i kept called her each day, hoping that she would actually answer my phone. just yet, another thing stuck me. 


i was hoping for a human to help me, i was begging to a human. but why can't i beg for her superior, her Creator. My Creator. OUR CREATOR. 

then, i slowly reached out my broken heart to my Al-Quran...i read the tafsir and read again and again. however, there is one line that i always come stumbling into, like we have to say InsyaAllah and must always tasbih ( say SUBHANALLAH) in the morning and the afternoon...

i was perplexed. however somehow in that particular desperate zone, i do what my God, our ALLAH told me to, and somehow i find peace deep inside my heart. i find peace. i feel peace. and each time, i feel troubled, i turn to Him and cry to Him, i read His Words (al-Quran) and i find peace. really.

right now i am waiting for the outcome of my battle. no matter what it is, insyaAllah, it will be the best for me, since i know, He is My Creator, He Know What i do not know. and what he has arrange for me, should be the best for me.
insyaALLAH....2nd year, faculty of dentistry, uitm, 2011. amin....
insyaAllah, insyaAllah, insyaAllah.

the holiday issss here...

hm...what's more to say...this is the longest ever sem break the Malaysian university students have in their whole life...but yet, this is my first end of 2 semesters break(insyaAllah, gonna start second year soon) but yet, this is the busiest ever break i have in my life. as a matter of fact, i gonna sit for really important exam, and have to break all bone i have to finish the reading and memorizing and testing and explaining and all! ok...i.m okay with that,insyaAllah, but what i want to share here is not about that, but about KELANTAN WON SECOND PLACE ON PIALA VS TERENGGANU, of course...he won the first place...

but still i want to congrate Qlate for have fought till the very last hour, and YOU GUYS REALLY DO PRETTY AWESOME OUT THERE SEMALAM!!!!!

well kelantan memang kalah, 3-2. but Qlate kalah saat akhir. sebab few seconds before the ending wiesel, the Qlate made mistake and that put Tganu draw with Qlate. with additional 30 minutes, they continue to fought on and on. well that make the Qlate score another and Tganu score another and another.

3-2 in 120 minutes. with very loud crowds, undying Qlate supporters... well i am one of them jugak...tp x la sapa ke sana....kami sokong dari jauh... tp insyaAllah, doa kami sampai sana. however, things maybe with a reason kan...mane ade bnda wat blaku kat dunia ni, blaku saja2.. kita lahir kat dunia ni pun, sebagai khalifah...insyaAllah. maybe, insyaAllah, Qlate menang Liga Malaysia ke pulak nnt. amin....insyaAllah. kami THE RED WARRIORS SUPPORTERS akan give Qlate Footballers players undying supports, insyaAllah!! with half(or majority) or the red supporters fiiled the stadium smlm...kami bangga dgn game smlm...sbb kami tahu, nk belari kat padang tu, with the heat, the pressure, the lagging legs, should really been exhausted. i bet, mesti ada player wat wish, he is in the bench. hm. if it should be me, i really don't want to be in the middle of the crowds with thousand, er...uncountable eyes, watching your back and if you make one mistake, even for saving the situation, could do you harm...you mean for the best for the team, but, it turned the way round. and whole world is watching you....wargh........!!!!!!! ngeri....... but thank you Footballers, for the best ever bola sepak game i ever watch!!!!! with lots of card...haha... TRW, WE REALLY PROUD OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kami satu family kot gather depan tv tgk Qlate maen...best!!!!!!!!!! sbb walau kami jauh(Qlate-Stad, Selangor) tp rsnye, kami rasa semangat bemaen the Footballers tu. sbb kami orang Qlate, kalau kami dah comited to something, kami dead want to see it ends. how though it goona be pun, kami still akan sokong, insyaAllah...go go QLATE!!!!!!!!!!!!

hm.... i really love KELANTAN DARUL NAIM.............

plus, i really respect Sultan Kelantan and Qlate's Menteri Besar, TOK GURU NIK AZIZ. smlm, bangga tgk Tok Guru ngan Sultan Qlate kat stadium. i am a Qlate kan...walau kecek Qlate, bunyi mace SIE, tp still kecek Qlate wei duk dumoh... (ak pun x pehe, bakpola bahaso Qlate ak x pekat2 mace sek2 ni....), for me kan, they two both are really irreplaceable. their humbleness and good leadership in leading the way Qlate is nowadays is awesome!  i have been to a few states in malaysia but for me, Qlate is irreplaceble. well where can you find, a plain chinese that can speak Qlate better,superb than you and I AM AN ORIGINAL, insyaAllah, QLATE. and where can you find, girls and woman that wear baju kurung when they are in public, that speak and act so soft in motherly manner, mind, reallllyyyy soft and so anggun. they are not pretty, not gorgeous, but seeing them give you an ease at heart. and we Qlateness always greet each other greatly like old best friends even, we are only meeting each other once or twice. hm...when i was away, seeing other places, open my eyes about my own original place... that's why it is soooo harus that we people, travelling kan? so that we learn to appreciate little2 things LIKE our origin, our people and cultures... for me, Qlate is a reserved place and it is better to be like this. too much develop can do us harm, too little develop will belittle us. but, QLATE is in the middle. we are not big2 city like Kuantan, or down2 city like Kuala Nerang. however for me, it's not the building that should stand though, it's the people that should stand tough, i mean, unity, integrity, good-mannered and the REDDISH burning spirit among the people. it is the human development we should put ahead, before material ones.

what use is it if the people wear pearls, silk, gold, but wear the manners of five-years old kids. the outside appearances is achievable, everybody can wear pearls, it is money-achievable, but unity.... hm it's hard to find, but can be achieved. for me, Islam is the best way of life. the God is One, ALLAH. the religion is ONE as well, ISLAM. if there is few gods, what could the world be..?? haruk pikuk....disaster!the sail must never have more than one captain. the sail will broken with more than one captain. the best way to learn the best way to live in this world is, ISLAM. ISLAM teach me the best way to talk, dress, eat, drink, play, study and all. and what i learn, really is the best. you know, insyaAllah, Islam also teach me the best manner a muslimah should have.and it was really shocking that when i do the way Islam teach me, i really find it soothing inside me, there is no longer feeling of emptiness, dark-feeling, incomplete and rebellious. Islam also teach me the way to cope with problems and to overcome it. i really love Islam because it teach me what i want. Allah, insyaAllah give me what i want and you know, what you say as a doa, is makbul. insyaAllah, if not so direct, it delay for a few minutes, hours or days. seriously, if you put your heart in your doa, insyaAllah. have faith and you will overcome everything on your way,  insyaAllah. doa is our weapon, remember. we have Allah, insyaAllah. always seek for His Forgiveness and Help. for He is the Best Helper of all.